Life Is Calling.

So many things are going on right now, it's insane. There are only four more days of school left and I have no place to live, no job, and I have no idea what i'm going to do. Right now the plan is to move all of my stuff to St. George then fly home to California where I will work for a week or so. Then my summer classes start May 29 so somehow I have to find a place to live in Cedar City. Finding a job in Cedar is a lot harder than I thought it would be. It seems like everyone around me is getting a job but I'm not.


I'm not excited about leaving school for the summer. I know I should be so excited because it's finally summer but this means seeing a lot of my close guy friends for the last time in a long time. All my friends are going on missions and there are a lot of them. I may not talk to some of them that often but they are still my friends and I will miss them dearly. The day I leave this campus will be the last day I see some of them for two years. I hate thinking about it. The truth is, I wish they didn't have to go but life calls and they have to do what is right and serve the Lord. The following boys are boys that I will most likely miss: (I'm already missing Devin),  Danny B, Tyler, Jake, Tanner, Adam, Tommy, Mitch, Landon, Cam, Miles, Mark, Brayden, Bleu, Glen, and probably more that I just can't think of at this moment. I hopefully will go to a few of their farewells but a lot of them will be impossible for me to go to. This breaks my heart that I won't see them for two years and when they come back who knows who they will be.


Summer is always the hardest time for me. I'm mostly alone, especially this summer. I always miss seeing my friends everyday and this summer will be the hardest yet. I probably won't get to see my best friend Lexi until maybe christmas and I miss her the most. She means the world to me. She understands mostly everything that I tell her and she always knows what to say. Even though we are eleven hours away from each other and she knows no one that I go to school with, I still call her about all my problems I'm having over here and somehow she makes me feel a whole lot better. I wish I could see her so badly. Just a hug from her would be great.

This day was supposed to be one of the greatest days of my life and it was actually one of the hardest days of my life. It doesn't look like it, but I was broken inside. This girl was there for me every second of this night. I can't even say how much I love her right now. No words can even explain. I don't know why I decided to go on this little best friend off roading thing but I am.

So anyways, when I'm in St. George, I have no idea what I will do all day. Hopefully I won't be there for too long. I at least have some friends staying in Cedar but I will still be living alone and it will just be weird. On the plus, I can't wait to move into my new apartment with my other best friends: Dani, Kaleigh, Boss, Robertson and Megan! It sure will be a party although the social life might be on the down-low.

Now, the happy stuff :) This past week has been wonderful :) For my birthday, my little sister sent me a lucky penny and I actually think it might have worked. The only bad thing is that timing sucks. But, once again, life calls and we all have to go our separate ways to work, whether for the Lord or for money so we can stay in school and cure cancer.

At the beginning of this week I was so excited for life, and I still am but I've just been in deep thought today and it really is sad that I have to leave all my friends and the fun times we've had. There is a camping trip on Thursday but I can't go so that is one of the last memories i'll miss out on but I have come to terms with that.


Life is funny sometimes. It gives us good things at weird times or gives us nothing when we think time is right. Who knows what God is thinking or what his plan for us is. Life is exciting and I think that we should just live it as it comes at us and make the best of it. We should live free and feel free. We should just express ourselves and do what we want to do without thinking about it. Life is funny and great.


PS. A lot of things that I think are in my head and if you know that they are just in my head, please tell me because it makes me feel better. My mind is stupid and does things it shouldn't do.