Strong.

While I was doing my final project for art second semester I found a quote that said "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." I used it in my project and now I live by it.

 

 A few minutes ago, I thought "I'm really going to find out how strong I am now." I found out my final grades. Two were what I expected, one was better than I expected and one was way worse than I thought. Two things happened in about three minutes. 

 1) I became really angry with my teacher because not one time during the semester did I know my grade. I had done okay on the tests, did all my studies and he said everyone did good on our project so I thought the least I would get is a B. 

 2) I broke down and started crying hysterically because I thought of my scholarship.

I'm still very upset with the teacher because he lead me on to believe that I had a good grade and boy was I wrong. I studied for three days for that final and read the book. I know I had to have done good on the final. I think he made a mistake so I e-mailed him right away. 

During these 3-5 minutes I looked up my overall GPA and then started crying more. My mom told me that I had to keep a 3.6 GPA to keep my scholarship and if I lost it then I would basically have to pay for school myself. I've never had a problem with grades. Mainly got A's, sometimes B's and NEVER C's (with the exception of one time because I had the dumbest teacher in the world who gave A's to people who didn't turn anything in because he had nothing to grade them on) Anyways, the point is, I always do pretty good for a student. I was pretty sure I could keep it. First semester was great! I kept it up and everything. This is why I just broke down when I found out my GPA for this semester...let's just say it wasn't a 3.6...

So hundreds of things were running through my head. My mom is literally going to kill me, where am I going to get this money from, I lost thousands of dollars, I hate that teacher, I never thought this would happen, I can't handle this right now, what am I going to do, etc. Then I thought to actually check the scholarship and see if it really is a 3.6 I have to keep. So I got on the SUU website and searched my scholarship. There are a lot of different types of out-of-state scholarships and two are ones that you have to keep a 3.6. Luckily for me, the WUE is only a 3.3. At that moment, I went from tears of anger and all those other emotions, to tears of pure joy. The only thing going through my head then was "Thank you Lord, I honestly from the bottom of my heart thank you." I couldn't stop thanking God for what just happened. I still am not 100% sure if that is the GPA I need or if it is the 3.6 but I'm praying in my heart that it's the 3.3.

On a lighter note, (keep in mind I said lighter, not happier) my phone decided to not send texts or receive them! And my iTunes can't read any information from my phone so I have to restore it to its factory settings, which means losing my messages from everyone, including my last conversation with Devin...sure it's no big deal but still! So we will see what stuff is on my phone because I haven't backed it up in a while..

On a lighter note than that, I have to wear my glasses for a straight week with absolutely no contacts. The question is, what week will this be? If I start this weekend then that means no work next week. If I start after work then that means traveling a lot with glasses which is no buneo because I can barely see. So when do I wear these glasses of mine? Who knows...I guess that's two days less of work than I had :\

On one more lighter note, I'm ready to go back to Utah. I can only handle being home for a few days and then everything starts to annoy me. But then again maybe today everything was annoying me because I was forced to go to my sister's swim meet in 100 degree weather outside and I get headaches when I am near a pool. I really think i am allergic to chlorine. Seriously. So now I have a headache. But I got to see some old friends :)